This morning as I was planning my day, I received a phone call that changed the plans I had made. I am reminded almost on a daily basis that I plan my way but it is God who orders my steps. Do I live in a way that God is able to order my steps or do I constantly fight for control? I want to always be in a position to be moved easily from one step to the next, not go kicking against what it is that God has for me. In my "humanness" I think I know what is best but in reality I would be lost without direction from the Lord Jesus.

Yesterday in my devotions one of the verses I read was Ps. 16:2...I say to the Lord, "You are my Lord; I have NO good apart from You." as I meditated on this verse the Lord said many things to me but one of the main thoughts I had was...are You really the Lord of my life. In this verse Lord is used as Adonai. Adonai means Lord and Master. So as I read that again putting Lord and Master in the place of the word Lord I had to asked myself "is He really Lord and Master over my entire life? I wish that I could tell you that I had no hesitation when answering it but I can't say that. I must answer honestly and say no He is not. Now that could be very discouraging to me or I could allow it to excite me to know that He is not finished with me yet and that I am a work in progress. If I say "yes, He is Lord and Master over all" then I really don't need Him anymore. I have "arrived". I have by no means arrived and have lots of growing to do. I am so thankful that He is still working on me and I can honestly say that I do attempt to allow Him to be Lord and Master but I am reminded on a daily basis that I must continue to commit that area of my life to Him. The little song that I used to sing with all of our older children and continue to sing with our youngest is a fantastic reminder that He is faithful to finish what He began in me. Here are the words for those of you who are not familiar with it

He's still workin on me
To make me what I ought to be
It took Him just a week to make the moon and the stars the sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars,
How loving and patient He must be
Cause He's still workin on me

There really ought to be a sign upon my heart
Don't judge me yet I'm an unfinished part
But I'll be perfect just according to His plan
Fashioned by the Master's loving hand

I for one am grateful to a loving Father who doesn't give up on me when He knows I am seeking Him to become all He wants me to be.....until next time, remember who you are and Whose you are.